[Dragonmail: Ravindra]

[transfer_student]

Ravindra!

What are you avoiding Reilanin for? Shouldn't you thank her for freeing Iravati? You are both being very weird.

(I almost forgot to ask you so maybe it's all sorted out now; if so never mind)

-Nova

Comments

[paladont]

Of course it's Missie's fault! [OMG SO WHY DOES EVERYONE KEEP BLAMING HIM???]

[Nova you are a pretty cool guy, thanks for being on his side about this WHEN ALL HIS OTHER FRIENDS HATE HIM]

[(ravi that is not even a little bit true)]

Have you talked to her? She's so annoying! I can't believe she made Iravati!

No, a lie, I can believe it because Iravati is annoying too

But that's different

[transfer_student]

I have talked to her. She is very... hard to understand.

[Actually he kinda enjoys her but way wrong audience for his increasingly mixed feelings on players!]

It sounds like she refused to talk in her own voice when she was caught, which was just the stupidest. Sometimes I thought she believed she really 'became' Iravati when she used her voice... or something like that.

Or maybe she just thought that if we were stupid enough to think she believed it, no one could blame her.

[paladont]

Yes I know what you mean. It was terrible and now Vati hates Alex because Missie wouldn't stop speaking as her after she got caught and Alex got angry about it

And then she forced me to explain players to her while she was controlling her like I was too stupid to know she already knew

It's ridiculous! I'm glad she's gone now.

[transfer_student]

Hm, and I believed her all along that she really meant to keep from hurting you too much.

I guess in the end it was just her excuse to keep playing her game.

[paladont]

All players do is lie anyway.

You know the Spenta is a player? I punched him when I found out

I had to pretend to regret it but secretly I don't.

[paladont]

Don't tell anyone I said that.

[transfer_student]

You told me before when you were trying to decide whether or not to leave the guild.

Good for you, punching him.

I won't tell.

[Wait he can't tell anyone?]

[paladont]

Oh, I forgot.

I didn't leave.

[transfer_student]

Well, that would explain why I'm not supposed to tell that you don't regret it.

[paladont]

Yes, exactly.

Maybe I regret it a little. But not as much as I think I'm supposed to

[transfer_student]

You can regret it whatever amount you like, Ravindra.

No regret at all is always the most comfortable, of course.

[paladont]

[........NOVA THAT'S SO WISE]

[...the first part not the second part]

But I always feel guilty if I don't regret the right amount.

[transfer_student]

Who are you responsible to with this regret accounting?

Why don't you get to decide how much to feel? It's your emotions.

[paladont]

The people you wronged, yes? Or the people around them. Alex thought I didn't regret it enough for asking Reilanin so he hit me, that's what happens, people get angry with you if you don't feel how you should

[transfer_student]

...He hit you for not regretting it enough.

[fjf;dj;s like GO! Except different because Ravindra and Alex were TOGETHER ffft]

You maybe won't believe me, but I think it's better to let people be angry.

[paladont]

Yes. Because I didn't regret it enough to tell her she didn't need to do it.

Why? I don't think it's better.

[transfer_student]

But it is better. Aren't you unhappy trying to guess what other people want you to feel?

[paladont]

I'm unhappy when they're angry with me, too

[transfer_student]

It's a better kind of unhappiness, though.

Ah, let's see, it's like... Good emotions and bad emotions both get to you through the same barriers, so if you aren't defending against bad things, you get to feel happier about good things.

[paladont]

I don't understand.

Don't you also feel worse about bad things if you don't defend? I'd rather have less bad than more good.

[transfer_student]

Admittedly I've had kind of a strange life, but I've cultivated sort of a taste for bad emotions and I don't think that's such a bad thing to do. The more feelings you can appreciate the easier it is to be open to surprises.

That... might be a little unconventional for you to work with, though, hmm...

[paladont]

What do you do when people get angry with you?

[transfer_student]

If they're right, or I like them, I try to make it up to them when I can.

If they're wrong, or I don't like them, then I get mad too.

[paladont]

How do you tell the difference?

[transfer_student]

It just depends on how I feel about it.

If I think I'm right and then decide I'm wrong later, then that's just another mistake I can just try to make up for in the end...

Your mistakes really bother you a lot, though, don't they? Do you know why?