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zenderael_ol2013-10-06 08:47 pm
shadowyarts) wrote in zenderael_ol2013-10-06 08:47 pm
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[Dragonmail: Malachai Brampton]
Sorry for the delay in writing back.
I'm not really sure what to say. I've been dealing with all of this long enough that I feel like I know enough to not have questions.
[...]
At least not questions about Earth or the merge.
What made you decide to create someone like me? Was I really enjoyable to play? [THIS IS KIND OF WEIRD] I mean, I was awkward and clumsy, self-conscious, always getting depressed, not very good at healing, or much anything else.
...And why bears?
[So maybe he does know what to say.]
I'm not really sure what to say. I've been dealing with all of this long enough that I feel like I know enough to not have questions.
[...]
At least not questions about Earth or the merge.
What made you decide to create someone like me? Was I really enjoyable to play? [THIS IS KIND OF WEIRD] I mean, I was awkward and clumsy, self-conscious, always getting depressed, not very good at healing, or much anything else.
...And why bears?
[So maybe he does know what to say.]
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But then he's apprehensive about actually... reading it. WHAT IF HE'S JUST WRITING TO SAY GTFO
He frets for a while before reading it... and is actually more apprehensive even though it is not as unpleasant as he'd worried, because QUESTIONS]
It's complicated.
Well the bears isn't, though it's probably pretty terrible.
It was kind of a joke, having you keep getting chased by them or needing rescue and start to believe they were out to get you or something.
[Yeah that is pretty terrible...]
Sorry about that. They're actually not out to get you or anything, though that probably doesn't help.
As for the rest...
Ravindra's player is a good friend of mine. I made you to have someone to play off of Ravindra, and to have something different from my other characters. You wound up being Victor's brother and the three of you were tied together, and I guess I enjoyed playing the awkward younger brother who looked up to everyone. I was always an only child until more recently, so it was interesting to try out, I guess.
You weren't bad at healing. You just had a low self-esteem, which at times affected how well you could keep up with the demands of a healer. [He has no idea if that's any better now...] But it was all just for roleplay- when it was really needed, you didn't fail.
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You made me afraid of bears as a joke?
I'm not sure how I feel about that...
You know my brother's player, too? I mean I assume so or I wouldn't be his brother, but you didn't mention his player.
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He resists the urge to try to argue defensively...]
Yeah, it's a lot more terrible reading it than it was thinking it...
I do. Not as well, though. Ravindra's player was someone I hung out with outside of the computer, but Victor's player I only knew online.
Since the internet reaches world-wide it's possible to play games and chat with people you never even get to meet. I guess like before the merge finished and we were able to talk to people in Zenderael from Earth.
I've met him since, though. He wound up going to my school and we got to know each other a bit.
[Also trying not to say too much about specific players...]
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...that's not something he wants to ask, though.]
What were you in school for?
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Then I became an alchemist and was making constructs before Medena offered me the womb and I became Vohu.
Wasn't really expecting to need the sort of training a Vohu would need, but I've been working on that since.
[That was more than Zach asked for but 'I'm a painter turned guild leader' doesn't sound like it'd sound very... promising to someone else.]
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You were an alchemist?
Do you still have the constructs? Like do they still work?
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I can't make more, though, and I can't give these ones to anyone else. I'm kind of stuck with them now. Not that I mind, they're awesome.
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What do they do...?
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I guess if it came down to it they could hurt people to protect me but I'm hoping it never comes to that.
And of course Antares is a mount. An awesome mount.
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[though the spiders and scorpions do sound kind of cool... apart from being spiders and scorpions, anyway.]
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I made him, he's kind of special to me.
Plus it's kind of fun showing up as the Vohu riding a clockwork horse and seeing the looks people give, hah.
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the rest makes some sense, he supposes.]
Do you feel that way about the people you made?
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I don't feel the same for Antares as I do for you or Valentine. It's... He was a project, like building a house, or planting a garden. Something you do for yourself that you feel proud of once complete, and don't want to lose.
You're special for other reasons. You're a person, a living, breathing human being, that only exists because of me. I guess in a way I feel responsible for you, protective, kind of like a parent whose child has moved on, if that makes any sense. I want to be there for you, if you'll have me, but only in-so-much as you'll have me, because it's your life to live and I don't want to interfere with that, or influence you in any way you're not comfortable with.
So far I've only explained myself and answered questions. If you want anything more than that, I'd be up for it, but I'll only be as much a part of your life as you want me to be.
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he's not really sure what he was expecting.
it's kind of overwhelming actually.
though it does at least feel good that he's not thought of like a construct horse.]
Thanks.
I'll have to get back to you, though. I've got stuff to do.
[because just saying 'I need time to think' is too hard]