Zachary Bristol (
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zenderael_ol2013-10-06 08:47 pm
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[Dragonmail: Malachai Brampton]
Sorry for the delay in writing back.
I'm not really sure what to say. I've been dealing with all of this long enough that I feel like I know enough to not have questions.
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At least not questions about Earth or the merge.
What made you decide to create someone like me? Was I really enjoyable to play? [THIS IS KIND OF WEIRD] I mean, I was awkward and clumsy, self-conscious, always getting depressed, not very good at healing, or much anything else.
...And why bears?
[So maybe he does know what to say.]
I'm not really sure what to say. I've been dealing with all of this long enough that I feel like I know enough to not have questions.
[...]
At least not questions about Earth or the merge.
What made you decide to create someone like me? Was I really enjoyable to play? [THIS IS KIND OF WEIRD] I mean, I was awkward and clumsy, self-conscious, always getting depressed, not very good at healing, or much anything else.
...And why bears?
[So maybe he does know what to say.]
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What do they do...?
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I guess if it came down to it they could hurt people to protect me but I'm hoping it never comes to that.
And of course Antares is a mount. An awesome mount.
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[though the spiders and scorpions do sound kind of cool... apart from being spiders and scorpions, anyway.]
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I made him, he's kind of special to me.
Plus it's kind of fun showing up as the Vohu riding a clockwork horse and seeing the looks people give, hah.
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the rest makes some sense, he supposes.]
Do you feel that way about the people you made?
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I don't feel the same for Antares as I do for you or Valentine. It's... He was a project, like building a house, or planting a garden. Something you do for yourself that you feel proud of once complete, and don't want to lose.
You're special for other reasons. You're a person, a living, breathing human being, that only exists because of me. I guess in a way I feel responsible for you, protective, kind of like a parent whose child has moved on, if that makes any sense. I want to be there for you, if you'll have me, but only in-so-much as you'll have me, because it's your life to live and I don't want to interfere with that, or influence you in any way you're not comfortable with.
So far I've only explained myself and answered questions. If you want anything more than that, I'd be up for it, but I'll only be as much a part of your life as you want me to be.
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he's not really sure what he was expecting.
it's kind of overwhelming actually.
though it does at least feel good that he's not thought of like a construct horse.]
Thanks.
I'll have to get back to you, though. I've got stuff to do.
[because just saying 'I need time to think' is too hard]