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[Dragonmail: Missie♥]

[Is that...is that even the right way to address these things? That's how her letters were addressed, so...]

[Sent in the morning, after waking up alone at the inn]

Where does she go when you're not controlling her?

[Dragonmail: Reilanin]

[Sent in the afternoon, the day after he begged her to sever Iravati from Missie]

It was a lot to ask of you.

I'm sorry.

[He feels like he should be saying "you don't have to," but he doesn't want to give her that out. She already agreed to it. He can't cope if she goes back on that, so she's not getting that opening from him.]

It means a lot to me, Reilanin. Thank you.

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[This does not come until several hours later because nursing!!]

Oh, hello Ravindra! ♥ I didn't expect to ever speak with you!

I don't know where she goes. Somewhere safe, I think, since nothing changes with her in the meantime.

You spoke with me last night. [DON'T BE DENSE MISSIE]

Mmn no? I don't remember it.

Unless reading the letter counts. Don't tell Iravati you read it! She'll be really embarrassed about that one part!

You were Iravati.

But Iravati is Iravati

And Missie is Missie.

Right?

It's like how you always remember being Ravindra and Nadir always remembers being Nadir.

[Okay but that is entirely beside the point]

I know you can talk through her. Heimdall does it with Artemis.

Well, maybe, yeah!

But she wouldn't have liked it in that situation.

Or any situation, but especially something serious like that!

[Don't claim you were just thinking of her, that is so...augh!]

[He doesn't know what to make of you, Missie, but he is definitely frustrated]

Do you understand what's going to happen?

Not at all!

Um. Maybe a little bit?

Something about helping her wake up? Which would be good for Iravati! And you wouldn't do anything to hurt her, right? So I'm sure it'll be okay.

Yes.

So I can have my sister, and you can leave her alone.

And then everyone is happy! ♥

[...STOP BEING SO CHEERFUL ABOUT IT]

[YOU ARE SO FUCKING WEIRD]

Are you going to try to be friends with her, like Heimdall and Marlene?

If she wants to be! It's up to her! I think it would be nice, but she's probably mad and that's okay too.

[Yeah, she probably is >:( ]

[ >:(!!! ]

I'll give her your letter again when she's awake.

Don't write her. Let her decide.

Okay, will do!

Or won't do, as it were. ♥

[the letter goes unanswered for a least a day. the moment she sees who it's from, she stuffs it under the couch cushions and avoids the couch for the rest of the day]

[answered saturday, midafternoon]

Mercurial bone powder.

I need three ounces of it.

[The longer it takes for her to respond, the more anxious he feels about it. He's sure she hates him and he feels so guilty about it that it drives him right back into that nonfunctional state he was in on Wednesday.]

[Shouldn't have asked, but it's his sister, does Rei even understand why it's so important, how is he going to fix this, he probably needs to just cancel the request but he can't it's his sister, and doesn't it make him an even more terrible person to know Rei hates him for this and still want her to do it?]

[It's a relief when she does finally respond, but.]

[He's still sure she hates him?]

[That night, he sends back a bottle of what she asked for.]

[There's six ounces in it.]

[He had to hire himself out for a couple dungeon runs to afford it.]

Is there anything else?

No.

[HATES

HIM]

[It's probably a stupid reason to have an anxiety attack, but he's never come out of one thinking 'man that sure was a perfectly justified excuse to have a complete breakdown of logic and reason']

[His handwriting is much more deliberate, because he's taking great care to write neatly through the shaking of his hands. He doesn't want her to know.]

Are you angry?

...no.

[actually, she's scared of you ravindra]

Please don't talk to me right now.

[please- she doesn't say that very often.]

Alexander is.

[THAT DOESN'T HELP]

[He is just going to go lie in bed and have a complete breakdown over this tyvm]

[At least he doesn't write back]

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