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[Text: Duncan]

Aaaah Heimdall I miss RP

It is so boring being me. even when the world is crazy

The boring is portable, I just bring it with me into interesting situations

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You could always try video games.

What do you think are the odds of a forum RP coming to life on us?

How are video games more creative than watching TV?

...Probably low, but COULD we? Like, who would you even play? Ravi? Someone like Ravi? Someone with a totally new set of issues? Wouldn't you feel weird picking the issues? Or like you were missing the point of why you wanted to do it to begin with?

I never even noticed like how much Nova was an alter ego with the extroversion and the not giving a shit about consequences. I'm not sure I ever did it for highbrow writerly reasons where I could just spin out somebody equally entertaining with an unrelated personality.

I meant more for the recovery mode.

I could always pick up Iris again, or expy her into an OC.

I get what you're saying, though. Once you make somebody up as a collection of traits, and then that collection of traits ends up belonging to a real flesh and blood person, you're kind of fucked for ever trying again.

Yes, precisely. That 'I'm an asshole' feeling is now associated with any form of fictional cruelty (which most RP kinda boils down to, don't shoot the messenger)

It is all ruined

I mean the larger problem is that the world is ending and several alts including my own want to kill us, but right now is inappropriate whining time and it's like I'm missing a part of meeee

Feel free to join in the inappropriate whining, this is kinda awkward tbh

I can't argue that. Ravi's a walking case study on it.

But Nix, how will I continue to come across as the mature adult you consult for advice if I start inappropriately whining now?

Don't lie, you probably wanted off advice duty anyway

Let this be your easy out. Whine with me Heimdall!

Fuck man I just want to play out some terrible self-indulgent angst and forget about all the bullshit going on in my life :(

yes, dammit, exactly!

I want to come up with weirdly positive reactions to epic Artemis burns! >:(

I'm going to miss writing those burns.

I can't help wondering how much time I've got left with him. I already deleted all the dmails I sent OOCly from him and I'm wondering if I should leave him a message to explain what the fuck even happened.

You have probably heard that my new official advice is stay the fuck away (do as I say not as I do)

But doubtful that will work for you, I figure Nova is going to mention you to him probably before he even asks.

Have you got a speech worked up at all? Any sense of what might resonate versus set him off? I think I could have handled my first communications better...

Or are you not even gonna try to apologize since the situation is super fucking extreme? I mean I guess the others were super fucking extreme too

Fictional cruelty why are you so interesting and commonplace!!

Yeah, I figure I need to say something before Nova gets to him about me.

But I really have no clue what, my track record's kind of split here. I guess an apology is in order but I don't think it'll mean anything to him.

Fuck man, I know!