[PM: Deathbringer]

[taking_names]

[he was going to let this go but it just kept knocking around in his head and before he knew it he was internet stalking Siegmund to find out his identity and...]

So on a scale of one to ten, how impossible is it for a very friendly and kind person who might have once temporarily blinded you in a fit of misguided anger to make amends?

Ten means super impossible.

[...Nova has kind of a player problem]

[sent from an empty account that is just a lot of letters strung together]

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[bloodonthestones]

It isn't.

You only think so because you are a terrible person who can't even feel sorry for doing something wrong.

[taking_names]

That was true, but still hurtful!

[bloodonthestones]

Then maybe you should change it.

[taking_names]

I don't know how to make myself be sorry for things I'm not sorry for.

[bloodonthestones]

Think about how you would feel if someone did the same to you, and realize that someone feels that way because of something you did.

[taking_names]

[a few minutes later]

It didn't work.

[bloodonthestones]

You didn't actually think about it.

[taking_names]

I did think about it. I felt pity for you because it was probably a frightening experience, but I didn't feel guilty for causing it...

Guilt is very distinctive and terrible and I've only felt it a couple of times since I awakened.

[bloodonthestones]

[wow, asshole.]

[...actually, upon further consideration, it's worse than just being an asshole. Somebody who's incapable of feeling guilt is a legitimately scary thought.]

If you don't feel guilty to hurt people, what stops you to do it?

[taking_names]

Mostly, I like them and I feel sympathy for them.

[bloodonthestones]

But your sympathy is not connected to your actions.

[taking_names]

The whole world had been turned upsidedown. That wasn't a normal situation.

[bloodonthestones]

You just said you don't feel guilt for anything.

That means your sympathy is separate from what you do.

[taking_names]

You've got it all tangled up, hold on...

My sympathy is connected to my actions because anticipating hurting people affects whether I want to do it.

But if I make a mistake, or if... something else goes wrong with that, I don't feel guilt after. If they're close to me I feel bad for them and try to make up for it, but I don't feel... that sort of self hatred and disappointment mixture... thing.

[bloodonthestones]

Do you remember I said don't read the wikipedia page for Teshuvah?

Go read the wikipedia page for guilt.

[taking_names]

[he checks it]

What was I supposed to learn

that filename is IC btw

[bloodonthestones]

1/2

[taking_names]

Oh.

2/2

[taking_names]

...well I'm made up, what do you expect

[bloodonthestones]

[taking_names]

I DIDN'T SAY I WASN'T A PSYCHOPATH STOP MAKING IT BIGGER

how did you make it bigger

[bloodonthestones]

Ancient forbidden magic.

[taking_names]

You don't like me and maybe I should stop talking to you now.

[bloodonthestones]

Wait.

I was still serious about the potions.

[taking_names]

What!

You can't make your complicated amends to me if you hate me and want me to feel bad about being insane.

That's not how this works!