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[Dragonmail: Rayu Barozu]

Are you all right?

[The first letter he sends upon waking up Sunday morning. He needs to know if Rayu's okay. Ravi getting out doesn't mean Rayu pulled through, though he's hopeful it does. So hopeful, in fact, that he doesn't even consider Rayu being dead as a real possibility.]

[It's sobering when the dragon refuses to take the letter.]

[A couple hours of desperate panic ensue as he tries to find someone who can tell him what happened. He comes up short, and then remembers...]

[Dragonmail: The Ahura]

[Rayu's player.]

Victor. What happened to him?

[And then a few hours after that, once he's had time to settle and realizes there are other people he needs to get in touch with. Early Sunday afternoon, by this point.]

[Dragonmail: Alexander Varista]

Are you all right?

Why did you leave us?

[Dragonmail: Reilanin]

[please let this letter send, please do not tell him that the god-organ changed hands and she died in the process]

I don't know if Alex told you about the mission on Friday night, but I survived it.

What happened with the Asha?

[OH THANK GOD the dragon took it]

[there are probably other people he should write but he just does not have the energy right now. Later. Tomorrow, maybe, if he's feeling better enough for it then.]

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That's good. So it's over?

Mana burn. Be careful with that. I don't think

[ the letter takes a little while to come back because of this pause, it's a few teabags from theresa's kitchen (sorry gunnar) ]

Rest a lot. This tea smells very good. You should try some.

Yes. Yes, it is. He said he was going to check up on all the other golems. I'm fine. He separated us. I'm fine. How is Alex?

[aw rei he appreciates, the tea gets a smile out of him]

I'll try it. Thank you.

It's over for now. It's not the end of the fight, but we rescued the Spenta and Vahishta. We intend to retake Everea, but that will take time. I won't be fighting again any time soon, I think.

I'm glad to hear that. [writing it like that sounds insincere, but he is, he really is overjoyed that she survived the transfer and that the new Asha freed her from her connection to the Lungs. it sounds like Best Possible Outcome for her and he's happy for it.]

I don't know. Alex left before we got out. I only woke up this morning.

So there's more? [ does that mean... she can't go back yet? why hasn't alex said anything? she reads the rest of the letter. he doesn't know how alex is. he hasn't seen him. he's been out for over a day. so does ravi just not know? ]

What do you mean, he left before you got out? What does that mean?

Yes.

On our way out, he ran off after something. I didn't see him again before I passed out.

Oh. And he's

not there?

[ where is he, then? ]

Where are you?

Omghan. At the paladins' infirmary.

I don't know where Alex is. He's responding to my letters, at least.

Omghan. Where Nova lives?

[ but she can't go back until she knows it's safe to. she's sat back down, unaware of gunnar giving her puppy dog eyes over the teabags from his spot on the couch. ]

I'm sorry. I'll visit when I can. But I don't know when that will be.

[ there are other questions, other things to ask after, but she can't bring herself to. she's worried now. why isn't alex with ravi? why did he leave? why hasn't he spoken to her?

...is it because he can't? ]

All right. That's good. I'll. I'll send him something. [ it doesn't seem like enough. maybe she can- maybe she can just. go home.

it should be okay, for just a little bit. if no one sees. and he should be home, right? she can just go home. ]

Do you need anything? Can I get you anything?

Yes.

Don't worry about visiting, it's all right if you can't. [he wasn't allowed to visit her when she had mana burn, so, welp. maybe it's fair?]

[no, it's not really fair at all. he would really like to see her, actually.]

No, I'm fine, thank you. If I think of anything, I'll write.

I'm sorry. I will when I can.

Try to get a lot of sleep. It passes the time.

[ there's nothing else around the house she can think to send to him. maybe she'll go out- maybe she'll go to the house first- she shouldn't go to the house but she already knows she's going to go- ]

... does your skin feel prickly? Mine did.

It does. I don't feel much like being awake, anyway.

No. That's common, I think, but I never get it. Everything aches, instead.

Oh. I remember that. Like all of your bones hurt.

[should she mention duncan at all? she doesn't know if ravi will like to hear it any more than alex would, tbh. ]

I'm staying with Theresa. She's got a young assassin as a ward.

I don't know what I think about her. She's very careful around me, but she becomes very protective over the boy. I am not to sit on the couch. It's very strange.

Yes, exactly.

Ah, your player? [he doesn't know what to think of Rei's player taking in an assassin, tbh.]

Is she afraid you'll hurt him?

[ he... doesn't seem very assassin-like? he's very quiet, but so is theresa. so is she. otherwise he... seems very normal. theresa dotes on him. she isn't even jealous, just curious.

well, maybe, a little jealous. but she's lonely. ]

I don't think so. Maybe. But I do not mind him at all.

Do you mind her? What is she like?

Have you seen Heimdall? He knows Theresa, doesn't he? Ah, on Earth his name is Duncan.

[Ravi is not like Alex, he has no intention of hurting Duncan (punches to the face don't count as hurting). Instead, he collects opinions. He wants to know what everyone who's met him has thought of him, so he can build a picture of Heimdall.]

... no. I don't mind her. She stares at me sometimes. She told me that it was very strange to meet me, though she's known me for so long. And now that she has met me, I'm different from what she knew. [ she's changed. is that good or bad? ]

She is nervous and quiet. She lives very high up. I can see much of the city from her balcony. She likes to read. She concerns herself with the boy and goes out rarely. She seems like one who is not sure of what she is doing.

[ ah, the question. she hesitates over this and tries not to scribble on the page while she thinks about it. ]

Yes. He knew the Asha. We met soon after the Asha left. He came to fetch something for him that he had forgotten.

Of course you're different. She barely left you with anything. Did she expect you not to learn?

What was he like?

I was surprised to hear it myself. I do not think I expected to, either. [ of course, she knew already she had. she'd known since alexander returned from afera that she was changing, that her understandings and priorities were different. ]

Scared. [ not written without some satisfaction tbh ]

Do you think it's a good thing? To be different from how she made you? [he has Feelings on this issue]

Of you? Good.

But besides scared.

... I am not sure. The reason for which I was created... [ it's complicated here, because she can't imagine consciously being aware of being unable to interact. ] We began at a similar point. In breaking off from her, I... progressed faster. I do not know why this is.

Hm. Apologetic. Desirous to help, but I do not see how he could. [ does he know yet...? has alexander said anything? she hasn't, either. she never took duncan up on his offer. she doesn't want to. ]

She made you like her?

[wow, depressing tbh. he loves reilanin but she knows so little about the world. to be created that way because somebody else grew up that way--he doesn't know what to think of that.]

Maybe it's because you have me and Alex to help you learn.

[he knows, but not because of Alex. he doesn't want to talk to Alex about it yet, and he doesn't realize Alex has informed Reilanin so he's certainly not going to bring it up to her unprompted.]

That's how he is when he talks to me, too. He feels guilty, I think.

He should.

Mostly. It seems, though, that much has changed for her, as things have changed for me.

I don't know. I do not feel as though I need to be important to her anymore. Nor does she feel the same towards me. And I am fine with that.

[ she definitely made him feel guilty hahaha ]

He was angry with me. I think it is because I would not take him seriously.

Ah, I can't really imagine feeling like you need to be important to your player.

[bristling @ duncan getting angry w/rei tbh, but she said he was 'scared' so he probably didn't try to hurt her. calming down a bit, then]

He's hard to take seriously sometimes. He seems so idealistic. He's helped me before, but I feel like he talks down to me.

Not all of us were created with the same reasoning in mind. I had a different purpose from you and Alexander. I suppose that is why my feelings on the matter are different.

I suppose it is ... simply the desire to be important to someone. Many people feel that way, don't they?

It seems at once both impossible to think they could do something to help, and impossible to think that they couldn't, for all the trouble that's come out of it. They have so little actual power.

Yes, I think so. [he understands that feeling well. he wants to be important to the people who are important to him. it's a trait he shares with akhi, but akhi took it to an unreasonable extreme.]

They only had power because they could control us. Without that they don't have anything.

[pause...]

You're important to me, Reilanin.

Yes...

But they are still people.

[ it's something she's struggling with. her feelings towards theresa are mild at best, but she doesn't particularly loathe her... and she knows very little of duncan as a person as well, and it's been what he's done, not really duncan himself, that she has issue with...

it's hard to know where to stand on the issue. for her, at least.

the statement gives her reason to pause, and she simply rereads it a few times, basking in it. ]

Thank you.

That means very much to me.